4 months/122 days.
As of today, September 1st, i officially have been self harm free for 4 months straight. I cannot express in words how good it makes me feel to have fought every urge i’ve had. I look down at my wrists, arms, thighs, and the rest of my body and it feels so good to not see any fresh cuts or scabs. Its been really difficult going from self harming almost everyday for the past 7.5 years to stopping completely for 4 whole months but i can assure you that its more than worth it. Since i’ve stopped self harming i’ve learned to love myself more, my life has gotten a whole lot more positive, i am happy a lot more often, and the little things don’t bother me as much. Needless to say i still have the urge to harm myself sometimes but i promise you, the longer you go without your addiction, the easier it is to fight the urge to give in. Time really does heal and things really can get better. Your body is the only one you’re ever going to have and you should take care of it. Don’t waste time hating yourself because we only get so much time here anyways. Remembering those things has helped me so much in my recovery. Also keeping a more positive blog (with no self harm pictures, no “thinspiration”, and no negative quotes/pictures/ect.) has helped a ton. My favourite tag on my blog is “good things” which is full of positive images and quotes. Eventually i’m going to print out everything under that tag and make a journal full of it all. Thinking positively and trying to live in the moment, i’ve found, is the most successful path to recovery. I’m not nearly done with my healing process but i’ve come far in the past few months and it feels really amazing.